thats all i keep telling myself nowadays. my life isnt that terrible honestly. i don't have a dysfunctional family, not suffering from any major disease, no terrible accidents to the ones i love.

sometimes it seems that you need to have like a MAJOR thing then people will take notice of you. i'm not complaining, it is just what i'm thinking. :)

BUT! (must practice positive confession) : God has been good though.. like.. He sends different ppl at different times to ask me about a particular issue. :) and i do share with them although i cant share what i feel totally, i just feel that God is taking care of me in this area. and moulding me in this area too. all the many nights of wondering / crying, the mornings of waking up wondering again, but God is good. i think through this issue, i've really learnt to put my dependence upon God so much more. Even as im typing now, i feel quite down, but All that is within me will bless Your Holy Name and i bless the Lord at all times. and i know and i believe that God is doing a major work within me..

in order to learn how to hold on, one must learn how to let go first. i'm learning to let go as i learn how to hold on, appreciate every little time spent, spoken together.

hmm gotta go eat dinner soon. i'll prob continue at night later on..