Thursday, February 18, 2010
my heart at this point of time hurts.
so badly it does.
i wonder why though. why it should even be this way.. God knows. as in seriously only He knows.
every night i lie down wondering sometimes crying. every morning i wake up with such a feeling in my heart, wishing and believing for the best.. but more often than not, it turns out otherwise.
why?
i don't think i'll ever know soon.
can anyone save me?
Till i see You once again..,
Time: 1:18 AM
Monday, February 8, 2010
i wish i had no emotions. i wish i had no feelings. i wish that my wishes would come true..but then again if it came true, i would be long gone before this blog was set up. :)
oh well. what can i say or do? every night i sit down and think, throughout the day i'm waiting. but increasingly it seems to be in vain. when will it end, 3 weeks and counting of this.. feeling. this is not what i imagined things to be like that.. well of course, over the years i realise that i can plan for many many many things but more often than not, nothing that i plan for really comes to the way i visualise it. perhaps i have a wrong vision then?
one day i know it'll get better.. for now, its really alot of holding back, self control, thinking positive and questioning God but yet just claiming verses.
Till i see You once again..,
Time: 5:02 PM