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  • Tuesday, January 29, 2008
    Attitude is Everything


    This devotional was written by Leslie Snyder

    Rejoice in the LORD always. I will say it again: Rejoice! —Philippians 4:4


    As you read it, remember the words of Paul in Philippians 4:11b, “I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances…”


    There once was a woman who woke up one morning, looked in the mirror, and noticed she had only three hairs on her head.
    Well," she said, "I think I'll braid my hair today ."
    So she did and she had a wonderful day.

    The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and
    saw that she had only two hairs on her head.
    "H-M-M," she said, "I think I'll part my hair down the middle today . "
    So she did and she had a grand day.

    The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and n
    oticed that she had only one hair on her head.
    "Well," she said, "today I'm going to wear my hair in a pony tail."
    So she did and she had a fun, fun day.

    The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and
    noticed that there wasn't a single hair on her head.
    "YEA!" she exclaimed, "I don't have to fix my hair today!"


    The road you are traveling may be difficult and even heartbreaking.
    These seasons of life are inevitable. Yet, how we respond makes a tremendous difference. We can ask for God’s strength to help us.
    We can choose the attitudes we live by, even on our darkest day.

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 11:17 PM

    ding dong bells!

    ok, the title has no meaning.. haha.

    oh well, been awhile since i typed anything.. been too busy, tired and caught up to really feel like typing. but just decided to do so tonight anyway..

    took leave today to spring clean the house, never knew there was so much dust, rubbish etc to be cleared. its an annual event, to breathe the dust and fall sick.:D haha.. did a lit jogging to singapore poly and back just now too, took abt 1 hr and covered a distance of about 8km. with badly scraped knees and a swollen ankle from yesterday's match. not recommended to anyone unless you do want to try to break the mind and pain barrier, or if u just need to take yr mind and burst your lungs out. =)

    yesterday's match was not too bad i guess. i feared the worse but it turned out pretty alright.. sure we lost 3-0 but some of us put in commentable performances, Gideon, Clement and Jun Wei were defensively revealed. Mel in his raging best as a stopper and Brendan mauling down the flank. Greg with his flicks and stuff. and Sunny, outstanding as ever in goal to keep the scoreline down. =) well done guys..

    dear beloved cell, like Mel's msg, this week's cell is on friday, please please come ok? and be prepared to pray for sometime, so dont tire yourselves out the whole day..

    looking on, David said in 2 Samuel 23:24

    ".. i will not offer a sacrifice to the Lord my God which costs me nothing.."

    sure, in his context, its just paying for the land from the landowner. but the principle is still the same. a sacrifice has to cost otherwise why call it a sacrifice? its a tough choice.. but what needs to be done has to be done i guess.. it will take alot of faith and belief in God to really carry it out wholeheartedly.

    but,

    there's light at the end of the tunnel.

    and above the dark clouds, the sun still shines..



    whoever that needs this, be encouraged.

    God will not test us beyond what we can bear.

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 12:26 AM

    Tuesday, January 22, 2008
    Ecclesiastes

    Ecc 3:1

    To everything there is a season,
    A time for every purpose under Heaven.



    Col 3:2

    Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth.




    nice verses, meaningful but yet tough to follow. ;)



    Endure and Excel.

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 12:16 AM

    Thursday, January 17, 2008
    mid week.

    "you a PTI? sure anot?"

    "so skinny.look at your arms, no muscle."

    "no abs.whats wrong with you?"

    "if u are a PTI, i also can..."


    haha. all the doubts in the world floods into me once in a while in a form of doubting human beings. what can i do or say? my pride takes a beating but i still have to wear the cross sword proudly.

    oh well, always coming in as runner up! haha. =)

    so tiredddd. mentally exhausted from all the paper work, stress in camp but a day over means a day closer to ORD.. sounds so far but its only abt 7 more months. and hopefully, prayerfully, divinely university for me.

    or maybe not? im always the odd one out, left behind. maybe i'll have to take a different path from my friends as usual. whats new? everyone will be talking about the same thing while i'll force a smile =) and try to join in but to no avail. hahahaa.weirdness.


    aiya. all the questions and not much answers. who what when where how why?


    i'll go read bible and then sleep.. a new day beckons!

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 12:32 AM

    Tuesday, January 15, 2008
    Tuesday.

    Ages since i typed something.. so here's something.

    interesting few days with Heidi Baker's conference actually. realised a few things.. sometimes just gotta face them head on as much as its uncomfortable.

    well,nothing much to say actually, haha. im just going to sleep.. its amazing how things so far back catches up, when will it end? a good question. =)

    looking forward to ignite! plus David's bdae.

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 11:32 PM

    Friday, January 11, 2008
    TGIF

    hehe.

    its fri.. finally. all the work's over for the next two days at least.. not that much stress, or is it? we'll see.

    today was interesting. went to cornerstone for the conference.. but guess what? the overflow room was overflowed and there was no space. haha. so went for dinner and parkway.. its a good thing actually, makes me even more excited about whats to come in the next two days.

    im not sure what to expect actually. its different from camps or what, conferences are just a lit hard to expect. nevertheless still have to try and expect something from God. what if im called to Africa? haha you never know ah.. but 1 step at a time. settle the internal before going to the external. all the thoughts/feelings are back again. why? i dun understand.. even in camp, as they keep flooding in, all i can think is..


    come Holy Spirit, fall on me now


    this song brings back much memories..


    i need Your annointing, come in Your power


    it seems like a power/warfare song but its so meaningful and real.


    i love You Holy Spirit, You're captivating my soul
    and everyday,
    i grow to love You more..


    the best is yet to come.



    im reaching for Your heart, You hold my life in Your hands
    drawing me closer to You, i feel Your power renewed
    nothing compares to this place where i can see You face to face....
    i worship You in spirit and in truth



    humming the tune makes me feel better a little, gives me strength to go on somemore and not give up.

    well,

    gottttaaaa zzz. tired.

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 11:43 PM

    Wednesday, January 9, 2008
    mid week!

    its wednesday!

    haha. yes it is..

    mid week. so many things done already.. feel a little more accomplished than i felt last wed.. its a good thing!

    had precepts today. its super interesting to me, and its only the 1st lesson. firstly, its like a night class! haha thats the fun part. i always wanted to take night classes but this is something new.. secondly, going thru just the 1st 5 chapters of genesis has revealed stuff. its just the thought and the action of actually doing something to grow spiritually that is getting me excited.

    i think meat is good for the body.. fed with spiritual meat and milk, exercised by speaking in tongues and using the gifts. quite good what? i mean if we just keep eating and eating and not exercising, we will be become fat? =) what happens in the natural happens in the supernatural.

    its interesting how struggles dont go away, but continues to become a huger struggle as we deal with it face on. how interesting that we try every single thing to solve it before we turn to God.

    He'll come through.. He always does.

    pay's coming in a day!

    ord is in approx 7 months.


    oh well,


    time to zzz. 5 am beckons.



    and half day! (hopefully) =)

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 12:23 AM

    Tuesday, January 8, 2008
    its safe to say monday's over.

    yes it is!

    it is now tues, 0039 hours. (i just cant get the post to display the spaces in between!!)

    another day at work,lovely dovely AFS. the work's all piling up.. lots of things to go through, review, present, go through, review, present, go through, review, present.neverending.. but wait. there's the swimming pool and gym besides my office. that makes the "go through, review, present" a whole lot less painful.

    im so tired.. everywhere, everything.

    how could i live without You
    how would i survive
    without Your love,
    without Your touch..
    You're the only one that heals me,
    that cleanses my heart,
    and sets me free..
    ive been running everyday( at least today and yest), exercising when i get up and gymming at camp. body aches with satisfaction. hahaaa. weirdness. plus lookin through YA plans, reading the bible, derek prince, precepts tml and a whole lot of other things.. including the thoughts.
    now i come right before You
    with my hands lifted up
    and my heart humbly bowed
    at Your work on the Cross..
    as You hung there and died,
    You were paying the price
    for my life
    for my life..
    God has to come through somehow. He always does, He just has to.
    the desires, the struggles, the pain, the hidden sorrows, the mindsets, the questions, the doubts, the esteem and it goes on.
    but He's..
    simply God.
    and
    He has never failed.
    for Your love is higher than the heavens
    deeper than the seas
    and all i want
    is You in my life
    no one else can satisfy my soul
    and make me feel this way
    only You Lord,
    only You.
    nuff said.

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 12:38 AM

    Sunday, January 6, 2008
    =|

    its sunday night!

    tml gotta go camp. =) gotta think positive!

    anyway, its been a great two days.. salvation plus meeting new people that will come to church! its so exciting.. Roland preached a great sermon(though its not new but still impactful) and Rev Patrick Lau preached a similar sermon too! God is just confirming what He wants us to do time and time again.

    how? prayer, focus, getting distractions out of the way. nothing new but yet still always needs to be done. with a constant, disciplined effort. sometimes we know so much, we just got to do it. like do it! u know, do it! really, just do it.

    prayer is so important. God confirmed it so many times today, through the message, through altar call, through comm meeting. time and time again, whats the private place like? is it filled with prayer? seeking after Him? putting Him first really? or is everything just going on human strength? there's actually a huge difference in two.

    now( human strength and some prayer) = 1 salvation so far, new people coming to church, powerful worship, great sermon, open atmosphere.

    future( with LOTS of private prayers) = salvations! (1 per week?) new people coming to church, MIND-BLOWING worship(there must be a God kind!), impactful and permanent sermons, open as well as expectant atmosphere, words of prophesy released during service, powerful altar calls with deliverances, healings, releasing of giftings etc. and so much more, thats just the beginning. ;)

    its all there, need to just pray, do QT and do the small but important things in our lives!

    small things:

    parents - spending time(not just dinner silence) but communicating properly, serving them
    school - doing well in schoolwork, tutorials, being a positive influence..

    those are the main 2 small things. but they're important! i think i'll start to communicate properly with my parents from now on.. really talk to them during dinner times or whenever, make an effort to know them better? its gonna be weird, awkward intitally but its good and going a long way.

    bible says to honor your parents and with a bonus of a blessing. ;)

    haha. i on this hand, gotta stop struggling and let God be God. stop trying to solve the situation and only going to God when it cant be done.. thats not the way. God has to be there from the onstart. Lord, help me please.

    im trading my sorrows,
    im trading my shame,
    im laying them down,
    for the Joy of the Lord..
    im trading my sickness,
    im trading my pain,
    im laying them down,
    for the Joy of the Lord..
    one of my fav songs too. meaningful to me, hard to sing but its possible..
    yes Lord,
    yes Lord,
    yes yes Lord..
    yes Lord,
    yes Lord,
    yes yes Lord Amen..
    saying yes Lord, im giving it all to You. for Your Joy.. Your strength is made perfect in my weaknesses..
    im pressed but not crushed,
    persecuted not abandoned,
    struck down but not destroyed..
    im blessed beyond the curse that His promise will endure,
    that His Joy's gonna be my strength
    though the sorrows will last for the night,
    His joy comes with the morning!
    His joy's gonna be my strength! =)
    whoever that reads this, hang in there. dun be a survivor be an excelator. =)
    CELL GROUP:
    7pm at cityhall mrt, dp chapt 1. see ya!

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 11:53 PM

    Friday, January 4, 2008
    waddup.

    good night!

    haha. yes im so tired.. so busy at work handling training programs, trainees and politics. oh my, army sure is exciting huh? all the bits and pieces that serve to make my life more exciting, at the same time a little closer to the end of it. =) but whats more exciting is what is to come in 2008! for YA!

    haha so many things! battle plan, exciting program ahead, EVANGELISM! camps, missions, parties etc. its all good. realised that i do have a few things to take care of.. and its gonna stretch me quite a bit, i've never really done it before but its always a good experience. life's full of that.

    well, bible in 1 year seems to be going well for the past 2 days! haha. read until gen 7:11. hope whoever that's doing it will stick to it, faith-in-action, running the race until the end. wanna know God more? this is a good way, most simple, straightforward way.. =)

    oh well. guess gotta go sleep.. otherwise i need to start fighting a tougher battle against those thoughts, i thought it was banished in 2007 but 2008 its here again. but then, as i trust in God, He'll give me the strength to overcome them somehow, to fill my mind with Godly thoughts, plans and visions for His kingdom ahead..

    You give and take away,
    You give and take away,
    my heart will choose to say,
    Lord blessed be Your name...

    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 1:43 AM

    Tuesday, January 1, 2008
    2008!

    Its here! 2008 is here!
    Haha doesn't feel that much difference, but the new year is here. fresh start, but this time, im determined to make it a consistent, continued fresh start. =)

    before anything else, just some past memories of 2007..

    hehe my cell group. was taking during cell presentation in May..




    Good memories of a friendship.. 10 years ago and now..




    my life in AFS.. this is a picture when my senior ORD-ed.. mine's in AUG!

    (from left): Joseph(boss), Max(senior), Gabriel, Hong, me, Ryan..





    this was my 21st birthday surprise! hah.










    Orphanage group photo during INFACTION 2007.. faith in action indeed..






    i always save the best for the last..





    my closest friends on christmas day.. =)








    and thats 2007! =)

    now for 2008..

    its a weird feeling i guess today? not here not there, not depressed not over the moon. its like normal. i guess partly normal or not totally over the moon is cause i gotta go back to work, waiting for all the workload to come in, more lessons to take, training programs to do. but on a bright side, this time next year, i would have ORD-ed! haha. finally..

    time really flew. this time last year i had to book into sispec, couldn enjoy my day in peace but this year, im here at home blogging. God is certainly faithful and all knowing and has a great plan! i think after going thru NS, im starting to understand:



    "For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.. "
    Jer 29:11
    becoming a Physical Training Instructor (PTI) was the last thing i ever wanted. why? im not a physically fit person, i kept failing IPPT, couldn do pull ups and jump far. when i got posted into Army Fitness Centre, it was a shock as well as a dread of whats to come. but God is faithful and in my weakness, His Strength is made perfect. what i thought impossible, He made it possible, what i could not do, He can do.
    and here am i, a PTI. learning to embrace physical fitness more as the day goes by, meeting different people in the gym and impacting their lives in His way possible. having not to stay in from mon to fri, freeing me to do His work and expand His kingdom. its just so amazing, that how everything just worked out just right!
    i believe 2008 will be a greater testimony than this!

    Cant wait for His plan to start unfolding.. but first things first! Bible in 1 year! =)

    Today gotta read Gen 1:1 to Gen 4:7..

    i only completed up till book of John last year but this year i'll finish it! haha. its all possible..





    2008..

    Faith in action.

    "show me your faith without your works, and i will show you my faith by my works."

    James 2: 18b


    Till i see You once again..,
    Time: 10:29 PM