just finished spiderman 3, that show never fails to make me cry or be all soft in the heart. like how Harry really give his pride and his life up for Peter, and even the girl of his dreams, MJ (who screams way too much in the 3 movies so far), up to Peter.. true friendship? perhaps. and i guess its a really harsh reminder that maybe that as much as i say i wanna be a true friend, maybe i am not such a person. maybe i dun have the love within me.. maybe i'm just all harshness and no tenderness.. the tag "gentle giant" is just.. off. this blog is my only way of releasing just a very tiny bit of what i feel within, i'm only human.. through and through a human being, created by the One most high and experiencing all the emotions within.

although i'm thankful that God has answered my prayers so far and confirmations about the direction that i'm heading.. it is easy to be focused when everyone is around but the moment i step out of church and am on the bus back alone, my mind just gets flooded with the millions of thoughts. thoughts of self loathe, inferiority, hopelessness, pain, comparison. sometimes it just feels like the breakup about 5 years back.. i'm not sure why.. ah! God to me, is faithful and true, and i know that as i go through this period of serious pain, He will be faithful and true to carry me through.. i really i hope i last till then.

school beckons once again tml.. my resolution is not to miss any class (and i cant now, attendance is being taken already.. :( ) so yup, have to go to school tml, catch up and study as hard as possible. plus feel abit weird around.. not sure why! facing the giants one by one, hurrah hurrah..

oh well.

Right thinking leads to Right Living..