830 class was super packed for no reason but it was interesting actually.. elements of social and applied psychology is a rather interesting module compared to sociology and no, unlike the general belief, this module does not teach you how to read people's minds. :) as to what it is, i'm still learning about it, think it'll be interesting for sure. just gotta write lots of essays..

after class had lunch with my friends and waited the afternoon away for the next class to begin. Human Resource Management. haha another interesting module.. the 1st half was about the exam format, notes, readings etc etc until i fell asleep. the best one was my head leaning on my hand which is balancing on the elbow on the table... and my elbow slips off. :) another embarrassing day at school for me! :) but after the break, it was quite interesting to see the difference between personnel management and human resource management. the perceptions of employers varies greatly..

i'm honestly beginning to like school a little more, because i'm able to put in effort and study and do well for it, like something that i can work towards to and something that i'm in control of.. and i guess i don't feel terrible about myself compared to last year. i think last year was just horrid.. loneliness and low self esteem and everything negative possible was swaming around me, but this year, it is improving.. just learning to be confident the way i am in the Lord.

although i still feel that deep hole inside. its interesting how God created us like this.. some days like this, it just comes so strongly and it hurts actually. but yet i'm unable to really say it out? haha. i'm not sure also. some prayers never seem to be answered.. or needs patience, LOTS of it. it is not even a question of Why God? it is more of a When God? question.. sigh. i sure hope soon.. or at least it gets thrown out of my mind soon enough.. :|

oh well. thought alot about my past, from childhood to now.. reflected alot, felt abit sad because i had a wishlist of Dos and Donts that can never be fulfilled because it is all in the past. but then its alright cause the future will be so much more exciting than before! haha. i sure hope so too at least..

alright time to hit the bed. 645am at NYP isn't that funny of a joke.. haha. goodnight world!