A Simple Diary.

Monday, March 31, 2008

monday blues, reds, greens, yellows etc.

hello.

haven had a personal blogging for sometime..

spent the day at home recovering from fever and headache and alot of other things that i just cant handle but i can only try to be numb and make sure it doesn seem obvious. makes me wonder whats going on with my body, overworked physically, mentally or emotionally? haha. we'll never know..

another 18 weeks to ORD!

finally, after going through 071006, its all coming to a closure soon. all the tough training, mental stress, emotional rollercoaster of the NS (with pride!) life is gonna be a thing / memory of the past. or a topic among ns guys / strangers that i'll see. for every phrase that i went through, there's a incident / song / something attached to it that makes me remember it so clearly..

BMT was the song "You're the God, You're God of miracles.."

SISPEC was the fact it rained everyday, during YA camp, christmas and new year and chinese new year.

PTI course was song "point of difference", my first sermon at GOP..

Unit life was church camp, the fact that i can sleep at home on my bed everyday! haha.

Lifeguard course was the fact that i always woke up late and even overslept on the bus to tuas! haha.

of course its all summaries.. there's so much more to talk about. good as well as bad..

but yes, 18 weeks to ORD, you would think i would be overjoyed (which i am partially).. but im just in a stuck state. ORD mode but reality is that im not. i want to stay home everyday but i cant. haha but lets be positive. i cant stay home and earn $xxx amount of money every month right? =) and i cant gym, swim and run for free every single day! the army's good. join the life and sign on! hahah righto.

what if i had signed on? what if i had been posted to OCS? what if i wasnt a fitness specialist? questions that will never be answered. unless i go heaven and God has this "what if" machine all prepared. that'll be so coooool.

whats life after this? there are a few choices.. like uni. thats one choice, if i get in for sure. all the dragon babies taking up the places, whats a tiger gotta do to get in? haha.
or work. something that i might really be doing.. somehow if that happens, its another phrase of life. no longer just temp or part time work, its work work, career work, feeding yourself and family work. i feel just a little old now. hahaa. gotta start thinking more about insurance, car license and car, income tax (!!!), financial planning (!!!!), soon a house, kids, education everything!!

lets reduce the moon gravity steps to earth gravity steps. i gotta see what the unis say about my application in May. big letter means yes yes and small letter means a no no. have to keep trusting Him..

Pastor Daniel's msg was very good on saturday! really really. i thought his points were very valid and his jokes are quite funny.the army's actually quite funny somtimes and he seems to be from the Army Recruitment Centre, asking us to serve with pride and loyalty!

haha kidding abt the ARC thing.

but yes. to know your enemy and to know yourself will win the battles as well as the war. if God dint want us to know about satan, He wouldn have mentioned him at all in the Bible. and already in genesis, we can see how crafty, decieiving satan is.. not believeing the lies that he puts in is important.

and also, succesful evangelism doesn just mean the person is saved! yes its very very good and joyous when a person is saved, but it often requires the first step of talking to the person about it. that itself is a challenge.

we do our best and we let God do the rest.. in the Bible it also talks about Paul and Apollos planting but yet it is GOD that gave the increase!

i think God's telling of us an important point. are we honoring God as God? Jayne did an excellent sermon at pre service. the part i like the most was the committment part.. we say with our mouths that we commit it to God but yet in our hearts, we're still nervous, panicky over the issue as if we hadnt prayed over it. actions needs to match the word. its almost like a faith in action thing as well. how can we say we have given it up to Him when we are still holding it close to us? food for thought.

worship was excellent. besides the fact that it sounds soo good, we all knew that its a worship unto God and something we all put 100% into. prayer really does make a difference. why? it sets the heart right, the tempo right and the consecration as levities and the seriousness of being able to serve the Lord.

dinner beckons! till we meet again!

Till i see You once again..,
Time: 7:12 PM

Saturday, March 29, 2008

The sheep wont miss you.

The Sheep Won't Miss You

This devotional was written by Leslie Snyder

So now, go. I am sending you [Moses] to Pharaoh to bring my people the Israelites out of Egypt.—Exodus 3:10

Monotonous. Tedious. Lonely. Boring. Safe. Those words may aptly describe the life of a sheepherder like Moses. They may also describe your life.

In the above Scripture, we find Moses tending sheep…or hiding. It really depends on how deeply you delve into the account of his life. You may remember that Moses’ life began quite dramatically: a threat to his life, a river rescue, and adoption into the house of Pharaoh. But after growing up and learning his true identity as a Hebrew, and killing an Egyptian, we find our hero living a life that is much less than dramatic. Moses became a shepherd, and he lived a life that likely became monotonous, tedious, lonely, boring and safe.

Enter God and His purpose. God had heard the cries of His people who were slaves in Egypt and He chose Moses to lead them out of their slavery. If you’re not familiar with the story, you might expect Moses to be rather excited about this new adventure. Something new has come along, an opportunity to do something great for God, to be someone great. But, that was not the case. If you look carefully into the text, you’ll see that Moses was simply afraid. He attempted to wriggle out of God’s assignment. In fact, the conversation between God and Moses gets quite heated with Moses making excuses, asking God to send someone else, asking for a sign and other seemingly cowardly responses. But God was clear. “I am sending you….”

In essence, God told Moses, “The sheep won’t miss you. This is the reason you were born.”

Doesn’t that resonate somewhere deep within you? Isn’t your life meant to be more than monotonous, tedious, lonely, boring and safe? What if God really does have a purpose for you?

Esther 4: 14b reads, “And who knows but that you have come to a royal position for such a time as this?”

Your life is not an accident. God loves you and calls us each to a life of great significance, no matter your circumstances. Do you believe it or are you hiding from the past, afraid to enter into the future God has for you? Now, be aware that following God’s purpose often requires great sacrifice. But, living for God’s purpose makes a life worth living.

What a devotional. we all have a purpose.. often its a choice whether we want to obey God's calling or not. sometimes its hard and it means giving / stepping out of our comfort zone. but if we dont do it, wheres the purpose in our life that God has intended? its surely more than just having a good life, education, career, stability etc.

The eternal purpose.

Till i see You once again..,
Time: 2:02 AM

Monday, March 17, 2008

return of the kubi.

haha weird title right.

haven blogged in a real long time actually, lazy, tired and other things. so thought i'll finally update the blog. and thank you all loyal readers and tag-ers for reading. =)

first,

Fusion Cup!

haha i think we really exceeded all expectations to go into the 3rd/4th placing match.. tho we lost 3-1 in the end, it was still worth the experience. not just for me but for every single person who took part in the tournament, and its great having the supporters to come down too. thanks to all that came and cheered their lungs/guts out,its much appreciated. Shawn the manager was outstanding in his tactics and training, first time i felt like a pro training. haha all credit goes to come for transforming us from underdogs to pitbulls. we'll definitely be playing together at least once a month and friendly matches whenever we can. =) and the pre-saved players to come church really soon for YA service! the bonds and friendships are built for a reason..

Fusion Cup 2008 Players -

Sunny
Alvin
Jun Wei
Ben Leung
Taufiq
Clement
Yee Seng
Gideon
Melvin
Vincent
Lemuel
Brendan
Lucas
Marcus G
Gregory
Rajiv
Kenny

Fixtures / Results -

CFC 1 - 1 Calavry XYQ
Herald 1 - 2 CFC
VFC 4 - 0 CFC
CFC 3 - 1 Calavry Spirits
SFC 3 - 1 CFC

Goals scored: 7 (Lemuel 4, Rajiv 2, Vincent 1)

well done everyone! till we compete again! =)

second,

everything else. haha so many things..but well, its passion week this week.

Good Friday plus Resurrection Sunday.

i think as a 2nd generation christian, i might not appreciate my salvation as much as a 1st generation. its not that im ungrateful for God's saving. its just that as compared to a 1st gen christian, my hunger and desire might not be as intense or as desperate. still, its no excuse to slack.

one of the things i've learnt last weekend was to love others like how God loves us. a very good sermon by Roland.. its easy to love the loveable but what about those that are "unloveable"? those are the harder ones to love, but do they still deserve love? yes they do, because Jesus came to die for all, not just for the loveable.

having said that, its my own personal battle plan to be nicer to my colleague at least. its honestly hard but i have to keep trying. he's still someone that God loves, and who am i to judge and say that he's not deserving of any brotherly love? its tough but its by doing this that people can see God's love. how to be a christian but dont' love? its just like going macdonalds and they're serving only fish and chips. =)

yeaaa. =)

time to start marathon training!

31st May - Sundown Marathon - 11.59pm kick off. - 42.195km

been out of marathon training due to soccer training, dint wanna tire myself out too much. but now its back to night runs, day bialthons, gym training and all. progressive training from 5km up to 36km. gotta find the time and place to run. and tons of new songs for the runs.

haha thats all for now! blogggg soonnn.

and passe is a french word? yes no? haha.

zz.

Till i see You once again..,
Time: 11:30 PM