Monday, March 31, 2008
monday blues, reds, greens, yellows etc.
hello.haven had a personal blogging for sometime..spent the day at home recovering from fever and headache and alot of other things that i just cant handle but i can only try to be numb and make sure it doesn seem obvious. makes me wonder whats going on with my body, overworked physically, mentally or emotionally? haha. we'll never know..another 18 weeks to ORD!finally, after going through 071006, its all coming to a closure soon. all the tough training, mental stress, emotional rollercoaster of the NS (with pride!) life is gonna be a thing / memory of the past. or a topic among ns guys / strangers that i'll see. for every phrase that i went through, there's a incident / song / something attached to it that makes me remember it so clearly.. BMT was the song "You're the God, You're God of miracles.."SISPEC was the fact it rained everyday, during YA camp, christmas and new year and chinese new year.PTI course was song "point of difference", my first sermon at GOP.. Unit life was church camp, the fact that i can sleep at home on my bed everyday! haha. Lifeguard course was the fact that i always woke up late and even overslept on the bus to tuas! haha. of course its all summaries.. there's so much more to talk about. good as well as bad.. but yes, 18 weeks to ORD, you would think i would be overjoyed (which i am partially).. but im just in a stuck state. ORD mode but reality is that im not. i want to stay home everyday but i cant. haha but lets be positive. i cant stay home and earn $xxx amount of money every month right? =) and i cant gym, swim and run for free every single day! the army's good. join the life and sign on! hahah righto. what if i had signed on? what if i had been posted to OCS? what if i wasnt a fitness specialist? questions that will never be answered. unless i go heaven and God has this "what if" machine all prepared. that'll be so coooool.whats life after this? there are a few choices.. like uni. thats one choice, if i get in for sure. all the dragon babies taking up the places, whats a tiger gotta do to get in? haha. or work. something that i might really be doing.. somehow if that happens, its another phrase of life. no longer just temp or part time work, its work work, career work, feeding yourself and family work. i feel just a little old now. hahaa. gotta start thinking more about insurance, car license and car, income tax (!!!), financial planning (!!!!), soon a house, kids, education everything!! lets reduce the moon gravity steps to earth gravity steps. i gotta see what the unis say about my application in May. big letter means yes yes and small letter means a no no. have to keep trusting Him.. Pastor Daniel's msg was very good on saturday! really really. i thought his points were very valid and his jokes are quite funny.the army's actually quite funny somtimes and he seems to be from the Army Recruitment Centre, asking us to serve with pride and loyalty! haha kidding abt the ARC thing.but yes. to know your enemy and to know yourself will win the battles as well as the war. if God dint want us to know about satan, He wouldn have mentioned him at all in the Bible. and already in genesis, we can see how crafty, decieiving satan is.. not believeing the lies that he puts in is important. and also, succesful evangelism doesn just mean the person is saved! yes its very very good and joyous when a person is saved, but it often requires the first step of talking to the person about it. that itself is a challenge. we do our best and we let God do the rest.. in the Bible it also talks about Paul and Apollos planting but yet it is GOD that gave the increase! i think God's telling of us an important point. are we honoring God as God? Jayne did an excellent sermon at pre service. the part i like the most was the committment part.. we say with our mouths that we commit it to God but yet in our hearts, we're still nervous, panicky over the issue as if we hadnt prayed over it. actions needs to match the word. its almost like a faith in action thing as well. how can we say we have given it up to Him when we are still holding it close to us? food for thought. worship was excellent. besides the fact that it sounds soo good, we all knew that its a worship unto God and something we all put 100% into. prayer really does make a difference. why? it sets the heart right, the tempo right and the consecration as levities and the seriousness of being able to serve the Lord.dinner beckons! till we meet again!
Till i see You once again..,
Time: 7:12 PM
