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Hello world.

its 7 1/2 hours to 2008 and im sleepy.. slept too much already i think. oh well..

29/12

CFC - YM + YA came together and had a combined service! our attendance was 140! haha i think abt that. its so amazing and its just proof that God is so faithful to us.. when we split, it was 70 meaning 35 and 35. but now its 140, meaning 70 and 70! we've doubled in size! seeing so many youths praising God during the praise songs was amazing.. its like mini youth rally actually. then worshipping their hearts out, kneeling, crying, lifting of hands. they are the changes in the world today, the light on the hill that cannot be hidden.. =) and its so timely that Sarah S shared for prayer, Rach led worship and Roland preached the sermon. i think seeing the combined event (YM + YA) meant so much more to them than to us considering that they were the pioneers in 2000.. well. to quality as well quantity growth in 2008! to influenze and infact, 1 to 1 in 1 and faith in action! =)

THEN! got the post party.. haha. its like gift of love, serenade,broken,u turn, 2001 st john camp, youth past and present combined into one! haha. Isaac and team did a really excellent job in bringing CFC's past to the people who just came in during the past 2 years.. seeing myself on video for 2001 was also interesting.

thank God for everything and how He has bought me thru these 6 years. everything that i am now wouldn be without His faithfulness, love and def grace and mercy. i dun deserve anything but yet He gave me everything.

well, moving along nicely.. the highlight of the night. the sliddddeeeee! haha. sliding down the church carpark ramp? =) its the stuff dreams are made of but that night, it was a reality! haha. soap dopey down the slide twice for me! spent half the time making sure people went down really fast with Melvin.. it was so fun. and great to see everyone just let loose and have so so much fun. i think that was a good bonding activity for YA, to unite us even as we march ahead into the new year full of Faith as well as Action!

30/12

woke up with aches all over. prob from the clean up the previous night.. hehe. mega craze but we did it! =)

i think service each week is getting better.. simple msgs but powerful altar calls and the best part of the service is when the altar call is over and every member of the church starts singing together in worship to God. thats the most amazing and goosebumping part..i just hope its not a phrase or just a nice thing to do. but it'll be a continued act of worship to God as a church in decisive unity.

after service, went for lunch, hung in the youth room, had a little chat with beloved Pastor Mark and then off to soccer! east coast cage soccer, artificial turf, 2 hours of non stop action.
Clement, Mark, Yee Seng, Rajiv, Marcus G, Gideon, Jun Wei, Kenny, Lemuel, Brendan, Melvin, Shawn Lim, Lucas, Sunster played.. took turns to play in teams of 5, was super fun. i think im a horrible goalkeeper, cant save the ball for nuts. but im a better defender.. proved that to myself in the last 2 games.. haha. silly oh well. its good to have the everyone playing together once again after a long long long time. prob make this a monthly sunday thingy. its a good chance to get to know Marl, Rajiv, Yee Seng better, to reach out to them through lifestyle evangelism too. sometimes, we dont have to search for opportunities to evangelise but they are there, right at our doorstep, waiting to be ushered into the kingdom of God.

after soccer, went for dinner at bk with Mel, Marcus, Gideon, Clement and Jun Wei. haha sat and talked and ate. the cell's good. great to be hanging out with them after a long time too..sometimes i think im too busy to spend time with them and thats not a good thing. but we'll be having cell meetings/outings more often, bringing in the new ones and integrating them as well.

31/12

All that i am, all that i have,
i lay them down before you O Lord,
All my regrets, all my acclaims,
The joy and the pain, im making them Yours..

and here i am. typing on this blog. waiting for time to pass to head to church..

2007. what a year.. so many things that went on. the pain, the sorrows, the hurts. the joy, the satisfaction, the love.

Things in the past, things yet unseen,
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true,
All of my hope, all of my plans,
My heart and my hands,
Are lifted to You..

be it private or public, its now all in the past. letting go of it and moving ahead to His greater plan in 2008. thats the idea, its not going to be easy but its going to be worth it. i just hope i wont make the same mistakes and i hope to do greater things for God this coming year..

Lord i offer my life to You,
Everything i've been through,
Lord use it for Your glory,
Lord i offer my days to You,
Lifting my praise to You,
As a pleasing sacrifice,
Lord i offer You my life..

i should be sleeping. like now.. gotta get up at 530, get a lift at about 630 and then reach camp abt 715 to begin the AFS anniversary.. half day sat in exchange for mon's half day.. so long weekend for me. hha oh well. this past 2 days have been good i guess? fulfilling,exciting, lots to look forward to in 2008 actually.

Faith-in-action. cant wait to see all that happening.

till then,

gdnight world..



He's my God and He is refuge
He's the rock on which i stand
He's my fortress, God He is my light,
He holds the oceans in His hands..


There's nothing my God cannot do..

its a rather interesting day, all the emotions, thoughts etc. wonder why they're back again. but they'll soon be gone cause its not right to keep dwelling on them.


spent pretty much most of the day at home.. hah whats new. woke up, ate and then slept again. what a pig huh? plus still sick, lots of green stuff and losin my voice slowly. BUT! went for Gab's cell chalet thingy in the evening, that was so much better actually.i always thought that being alone at home to relax was good but i realised that being in the company of others also help quite a fair bit. so it was a good thing to have gone.. =)


went there with Dickson, Megan, Dawn, Joel, Michelle..met the new guy Alwyn along the way too. then saw Gab + cell while walking in.. haha they rented bikes! the bikes were prob the best thing to do the whole night.. reached there, saw my cell and others, started bbqing and eating like nothing and then the cycling begun! haha. really, that was so so so so so fun.. up and down the slope, danger of getting hit by cars etc. =P what a life. 1st trip was with Gab/Jayne (dual bike), Joel, Teck Choon, Coral, Nelsen and Michelle.. went to changi v, 2 rounds around it and then back to the chalet (which is at a super ulu place btw.) went back ate and talk somemore with the rest of the peeps, getting to know everyone alittle better..


and 2nd trip! was to get drinks anyway. but still fun. it was me/Jayne, Joel, Maddy, Alex and Michelle..haha. uncle Tay and aunty Tong on a dual bike and going crazy! haha. not bad eh? we're a powerful duo. =) tho the upslope really took my thighs out but its good training! haha. the bike made weird noises but we took care of it. tay and tong. a tag team. haha even saw a bapo on the way back.. but thats a dose of reality in sg's nightlife.


moving on. went back for awhile, play game of life before getting a lift from Jayne's dad to tampines to take cab back. $24. chor man. i need to save $$, driving's coming, insurance plan is coming. oh well.. im so tired. even though i slept a reasonable amount today.. i wonder why. maybe im just exhaused from all the mind battle that im going thru.

anyway! next year, think i'll take part in quite a few races. 29/05 is the sundown marathon (http://www.sundownmarathon.com/) , prob do the full marathon, the ultra one will just kill me. next up is the lioncity marathon (http://www.lioncitymarathon.com/) 29/06, full marathon too. haha 1 month to recover in between, i wonder if its enough.. then aug AHM, and then dec stand chart once more. madness with all these marathons, i guess it gives personal satisfaction? prove to myself i can actually do a physical activity like how other people can too. haa quite silly but whatever works, i'll try it.. so that means i gotta start training! 5 months of condition runs, conditioning core muscles etc. and running helps to keep the thoughts away, i wonder why..

moving nicely along. gotta start reorgn my life again! need to head back to wok -shudders-, so need to be prepared mentally for the workload for WY08. battle plans for YA! all the exciting things to put into place, therefore gotta start working hard and make sure 2008 is a year of F.I.A. (faith in action) and more! service with goosebumps, a touch from God, a word of knowledge, a word of prophesy, healings, miracles. thats gonna happen soon. it has to! and salvations! a growing, healthy YAs living for Jesus. which reminds me. gotta plan cell vision for 08 soon and how to have a multiplication process soon.. tough but needed.

i shouldn blog too much. i think im addicted but only because its easier than to keep writing all my thoughts into a book. the personal ones i will la. but like all this stuff are share-able. and for edification! let all who reads be blessed and encouraged.. =) somewhere in the Bible says "to be all things to all men so that some might be saved" to the bengs, be a bengz, to a mat, be a mat brudda etc. gotta save people along the way! its hard but its worth it because thats the greatest impact/fulfillment of the last commandment and its for the eternity!

i think tats all for tonight. so tired.

here's a real old song chorus:

i want to walk You with every step of the way
to talk with You in the good and the bad
You're my friend
You're my father
for all times...
and nothing will keep us apart...
You're the lover of my heart..

hah. the old songs still rocks..

Christmas! is almost over.

or will be when im done with this post at least..

24.12

shopping at orchard from 1130 to 4, at least half the time with 1 contact cause the other fell out while blinking, lovely huh? looking for presents while being a cyclops. =) not as if anyone knows.. haha. "put on a garment of praise for a spirit of heaviness" result of asking God how i should feel about everything.. hey, that works. =)

Roland's house for steamboat/countdown? haha. it was fun just chilling, eating, laughing, singing and being rowdy.. i think its a good way to spend christmas eve, should make that an annual affair. saves all the trouble of not being alone on christmas eve. wrote cards from 1 to 4.. every year i resolve not to be last min but yet it keeps on happening, nvm 2008 will be a changed year!

25.12

woke up late, slept for about 2 1/2 hours, so tired but i guess happy? at least for most of the day.. its christmas anyway! it really doesn feel like it but need to make it somewhat like it..
service was interesting, 3 piece band, interesting songs as well, haha. emmmmmmmanuueeeeeel. lots of presents exchanges, photo taking.. lunch with cell at macs, great talking to them, especially getting to know Royston better, cant afford to lose anyone to the "backdoor" thing again. everyone that comes in must stay in.. it was nice that Samuel, Teck Choon and Royston prayed for me to get well after service, a real sweet gesture. one of the little things that makes my day a lit better.. =)

thereafter hung out at gelare with Meredix, Michelle, Sj, Ade, Fx,Gab before heading to Meredix's house.. watched this dvd called "13 going on 30". interesting show, alright so i teared a bit but who doesnt? =) i guess its cause i feel the pain(not totally understanding it), the emotions portrayed are so real also. but then, its just a movie.. how the story turned out in the end will never ever happen in real life. its a sad but very real truth. because i prob cant ever say "i've always loved you" to anyone without the person laughing in my face.. haha. oh well, moving nicely along. =)

had dinner at bro's place with his parents in law. haha weirdish but alright laaa. i fell asleep during the whole thing for about 2 hours.. cant believe it. only woke up when it was time to give out the presents.. felt sick, head spinning, eyes super dry and dizzy. but im back in the comfort of my own home, just finished going thru my christmas stuffs.. oh well. i guess its time to hit the sack. and time to get back into a work momentum.. all the paper work, workload, politics to handle once i step into camp..

Jesus please give me strength to go thru all this. to take in my stride things i cannot understand or control. to make my word my bond. to look at the big picture. to see people with Your eyes. to have compassion like You do. to have faith. to carry out Your plans and purposes. to endure the pain. to love You even more wholeheartedly.

oh, another 5 days to 2008. i wonder what it'll bring..

A couple of eons late on the blog thing but oh well.

i guess this would be better than having to write on pen and paper all the time. =) a little like an online diary but then, minus off the real personal stuff.

its 23/12, 2 days to christmas and 8 days left to end of 2007. welcome 2008! i wonder what challenges 2008 will bring. 2007 has been a rather interesting year? lots of ups and downs. definitely alot of challenges as well. army provided a huge challenge, why on earth was i chosen to be a fitness specialist! but God got me through and im not complaining right now.. i took charge of my cell group once again, time management was interesting but it was worthwhile looking back at it. AFS incident, stress levels were at an all time high but thank God for bringing me through in 1 piece as well as with my sanity intact. YA camp! haha. being camp commandant was very interesting, quite an experience.. wouldn mind it again, def learnt alot from it.

those are some of the major stuff that hit me. letting go of certain things was also painful but i believing needed to have a kingdom mindset.

Roland preached an excellent sermon last night. but then again, its not anything new, its just reinforcement into our YA to make our decisions count, make the battleplans action executable and the dreams realised. 4 simple points really:

1. It requires HARD WORK
2. It requires FOCUS
3. It requires COMMITTMENT
4. It requies KINGDOM MINDEDNESS

something new? not really. basically just committed, focused hard work with a kingdom mindset. can be done? of course. just gotta press on, suck thumb and push it up. im just praying for 2008 to be a year of FAITH in ACTION. so exciting to see all the YAs doing up their dreams and visions to change the world around, cant wait for some of them to be realised and put into action! like the sawang youth camp! haha. thats def gonna be exciting, even more so considered who the person was planning for it. great things are just around the corner of 2007 into 2008.

a dream? i realised i dont exactly have one big, gigantic, world changing one. but i guess mine is to impact lives in a way unexpected, to be a positive influence, to encourage, to speak words of wisdom into others. and to help others fulfill their dreams, everyone needs someone to believe in them so i can be that someone to believe in them! hah.

lala. sore throat, running nose and pimples filling me up.christmas joy..hurhur. still gotta do up a proper list of people to get stuff for, at least the cell's settled so far. =)

Jesus..